The Caprons

I took this picture in my parent's backyard back in November. The kids are looking at my mom, who is bringing out more Skittles to them... typical Grandma! I love seeing the look on each of their faces. Caleb has mentioned Grammy several times lately, and it has made me happy to think of him having these memories of her. He was telling me yesterday about how he remembered dancing in her room with Abby and Merek. That was the same trip as when this picture was taken. My mom had her ipod playing Christian music in her room nearly constantly, and even when it was off each of the grandkids seemed to know how to turn it on. That particular afternoon my mom, sister, and I turned up the music and danced with the three older grandkids. We acted silly and had a great time together. Even then I knew that it was going to be a time I would look back on and remember fondly.

Nearly every time I come home, I feel like I should have a message from mom on my answering machine. She called often, and I miss those calls and conversations. I miss seeing the blinking light and knowing that it is surely a message from Mom. It is crazy to think that I will never hear her voice in a message again. Jon and my former roommates can attest to the thousands of messages that she has left for me over the years. I wish I could have just one more message.

Caleb asked me yesterday who my mom was. I told him that it was Grammy, and he asked if I was in her tummy at one time. It reminded me of how much a mom is to their child from the very start of life. As an adult I cherished always having my mom to talk to. I miss that close relationship. As time goes on, God comforts and sustains me, but I definitely miss Mom a great deal.